Sunday, May 30, 2010

无奈与期待

你,又再一次离开我,但这一次并不是三个月而是四个月.我真的很舍不得,泪水从我眼眶里流了出来.但我知道,短暂的分离并不会使我们之间的感情转淡,分离反而让我们更加了解彼此在对方心目中的位置.我并不相信一见钟情,但我相信感情会因为彼此的付出而变得更加甜蜜,牢固.没有你在的日子,内心变得有点不踏实,因为我已经习惯了你的唠叨,你的撒娇!但日子总是要过下去,在这段日子里,我会好好努力打拼,为我们的未来加油!

心里有好多话想诉说,但并没有一个适合的对象.感觉有点累了,需要找个空间好好发泄.真心付出的朋友,这个年头真的有点难找.会真正给于你鼓励,傾听你的心声,包容你的缺点,有难时助你一把的更是少之又少.非常感谢上天,我身边还有这么一些朋友.

最近发现了一件有趣的事,原来很多人并不懂如何有效的沟通,当然我也是一份子.结果就是误会一堆,严重时还可能破坏了两个人之间的感情.但有些时候,却是有心人故意扭曲原意,害你一把.世界这么混乱,这张嘴的确也贡献了不少.怪不的国家领导人之间的对话都需要出色的翻译员在场,要不然翻译错了,代价就是成千上万条人命.

生活中,我都尽量保持着人不犯我,我不犯人的哲学.即使有人的罪了我,如果不是有心我也不会放在心上.因为生气人实在太累了,根本没有快乐可言!如果真的生气了,就这么想,'那个人可能遇上不如意的事情,又或者可能他的生活背景造就了他今天的个性.'说真的有时并不有效,但当我想到如果犯错的人是我,我也会希望那人原谅我.最重要的是,如果上帝能够原谅我所做错的一却,那么我再没有理由去生气,讨厌另一个人!不过前提是要知错能该!

生活有了些许的变化,无论前面的路如何,心里永远相信,上帝会在我身边,照看我这只迷途的羔羊=)

Friday, January 1, 2010

New year 2010

Before I plan to write this new post, I'm wondering what language should I use to express my thought. Well, the answer is english although I know that I can express better if I write in chinese.
Reason is simple, I want to have some changes in this new year. Something that I never want to try before or in simple I scare to try. Care for the way people look at me and worry for something that yet happen. Actually I have found a simple way to fight for this kind of fear and negative emotion. Bingo! That is, do whatever you think it is right to do, as long as no one is hurted from your action.
Year 2000, when I still was a tiny, weak and short boy. My mum planned to put me to study in one of the famous Chinese Independent School in Sabah, 'Sabah Tshung Tsin Secondary School'.
However, I refused and the reason is simple, 'teachers will use english to teach in class and most of the students use english to communicate(althought the fact is not) and the most important reason, I don't want to leave my family! However, I still sit for the internal exam and unfortunately I passed it. Without any excused, I have to follow what my mum has planned for me.
I have spend my wonderful 6 years at there and now I really want to say thank you to her for making such wise decision. I have make a lot of good friends and gain a lot of memorable experience from there. Because I'm an outstation student, I have learnt how to take care of myself and be independent. 'Never take things for granted and be well prepared for everything that you will face in the future, if you are not prepare then try your best', that is what I learnt.
Looking back to the past, I have make a lot of mistakes and yet I also have done something that is right. No matter what have I done or how down am I, my family and friends are always there to support me. I really want to say thank you and tell them I love them so much. The path of life is unpredictable, no one will know what will happen in the future. However, there is one thing that never change. We always have a choice to live to the fullest of life.
When I was 18 years old, I wonder what university and course I will enter after I graduate. And now I'm waiting for my final exam results while working as part time in my college. I really want to say thank you to my college and all lecturers that have taeched me before. Without them I will not be able to get through ACCA. And for sure all my ACCA friends that will always support each others no matter good or bad time. Hopefully everyone will get what they wishes in this coming february and all the best for them.
Until now, I still find it difficult to explain to my friends which college am I studied. Reason is simple, because they never heard it before. Well, my answer for now is short and simple, that is ACCA.
Sometimes I really find that it was pointless to explain so much to others since most of them will just forget what you told them before unless for those who really care about you. I always like to ask myself question like this: Is this your choice? Will you try your best to do it? Will you meet your target? I find that it really help when I start to give up in something.
Nothing is easy unless you work hard and never give up. This is what I strongly believe in.
I have spent two and half years in Kl and frankly speak the thing that I hate the most is the transportation system. I really get sick about it. However, there are also a lot of sweet memories that I can't forget. Soon I will back to my hometown. What should I do the next? This is the thing that I'm still thinking and try to figure out. But for sure I would like to complete my ACCA and get the oxford brooke degree in this year. This will be the stepping stone for my future career!
Here I come 2010!!!